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Monday, August 13, 2007
Had a terrible day yesterday. Must have been the start of the you-know-what cheena month wreaking havoc on me.Ok to start things off, my favourite BLING chain broke INTO 2!! Fuck shite, this has never happened before and the worst thing was that when i was still contemplating thrashing it, i noticed that the main BLING was missing and so that just compelled me to chuck it away. No hesitation. Just about 2 minutes after i threw my chain away, i stepped on something HARD.The main bling. And then i wondered why i even threw it away in the first place without bothering to look for the bling. I have only myself to blame.Second bad thing that happened was that my ring got scratched at several places and i didnt even realise it until ... told me about it.Third thing was when meli and i cabbed over to ...'s place so i could talk to her face-to-face cos i was really confused and yet worried about her. Plus, i couldnt see her expression when she called me in the morning to ask about stuff. I needed to see her face when she said those things.We ended things. I thought it was all going to be ok, and we could be friends. I really thought so.But what really hurt me was when she told me she's starting to develop feelings for ... too. As a friend, i could only tell her to go for it. But deep down inside, i was cringing like crazy. I totally felt an out-of-body sensation when i was talking to her on the phone, telling her to go for ... and that i'm getting over ...It's the hardest thing i ever had to do.To look you in the eye.And tell you i don't love you.It's the hardest thing i ever had to lie.To show no emotion when you start to cry.I was willing to take a step further and get to know you better but i guess i'm too insignificant to you such that you can just give me up that easily. I was willing to lose it all, just to be with you.I had such high hopes of us. And they're all dashed into smithereens now.But i hope we can truly just be friends. Just don't ignore me.Ok wait, i think it may be time to acquire new friends or just go begging for those friends whom i neglected to hang out. HAHA! LOSER!~ti amo
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